
So today I got a job that I only dreamed about. Bill Young Productions is one of the places I have always wanted to work. It's one of, if not the best, production house in the country. I am excited but also nervous!
When the lights come on this whole place gets ugly. But when they're out strangers fall in love



Now to me that felt like it took a few hours, in reality it was only a few minutes. Once again I heard the voice "Mr. Sang cmon dear wake up, you're all done." Now this time the delightful floating sea of bliss had turned into the hurricane of pain. I guess my pain meds had worn off and my brain finally woke up. The best way to describe it is that it feels like your guts are getting ripped out. Oh wait, THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED! I started cussing (a lot). MOTHER FUCKER THIS HURTS. Again the sweet voice "Mr. Sang calm down we'll get you some pain medication soon. Can you rate your pain on a scale of 1 to 10?" Now remember I have had organs removed from my body. "12 BITCH! OH FUCK THIS SUCKS!" Now my mom is a nurse and she has told me stories of people coming out of O.R. wild and unruly and until now I could not really understand why. Without missing a beat the nurse says "Okay Hun just relax and let the medicine work, I am giving you Morphine and Dilotted." I remember yelling "HURRY THE FUCK UP!" She touched my forehead and said "It's okay just relax your wife is on the way" and then the floating sea of bliss returned. I dosed off into that twilight between sleep and consciousness. I remember my wife coming in and telling it all went well, after that it was all a blur till the next day.
Ok so about 2 weeks ago my wife had to take me to the emergency room, I was in agony. I had severe abdominal pain and could barely walk. Well after being there the whole night they finally sent me home with some drugs and a diagnosis of Diverticulitis. After a follow up with my Doctor it looks like I am going to have surgery.

Look at this guy in this picture. There was a time when I would do that for shits and giggles. Do it for that rush you get when lightly knock on deaths doorstep. Hell I used to do it when I would go mountain biking back home in the Franklin Mountains. Peddle your ass off and go. Sometimes I made it, sometimes I didn't. Most of the time I didn't. I busted my ass so many times my parents actually bought insurance for the bike because the expense of fixing every week got to be too much. Now I got bumped and bruised and scarred but thanks to my guardian angel (who worked overtime by the way) I never got seriously hurt, I always walked away. Some where I lost that feeling and I miss it. And I don't know how to get it back, I'm not sure I want it back. Hell peddling a bike may cause me to have a heart attack nowadays. Have I gotten older and wiser? Or older and miser? Who knows I don't the answer to that question yet. Hell I don't think anyone does.

Another Thanksgiving has come and gone, and though I had intended to share this post a few days ago, life got in the way, and here I am jus...